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Awakening - A message from a friend!

12/23/2011

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This is a message I received today in my inbox! It is from my friend Hannah and I feel that I must share this with you all!
She also clearly explains the reason why I can't guide people with Ayahuasca yet, because I am just not ready with that medicine. Other medicine I can handle and deal with, but Ayahuasca is too potent for me, yet.

Best regards, 

Alvin

The message from Hannah:

The Awakening

Dear people of the Sacred Plants,

With this last newsletter of 2011 I want to inform you about some good things and about some bad things as well. At the moment I am in Africa and enjoying very much the peace, the nature, the sun and the easy way of living.

Fortunately I am on line every day and so I am still in contact with a lot of people. I recently have received the happy news that Peter Aziz will be released out of prison on the 28th of this month. So he will be united with his family and he shall start with his workshops and trainings again (of course without ayahuasca). He has already made a program for the coming months, but all his classes will be in England. Unfortunately I can not invite him to come to the Netherlands, since he is not allowed to travel till the end of the court case.

I will start with ceremonies around April 2012. Nanki Nantipia, a shaman from Ecuador is coming in April for ayahuasca-ceremonies and in May is coming Santiago Andrade, my favorite san pedro shaman. He likes to come for a couple of Red Path ceremonies in the tipi. I am also in contact with Javier Arevalo from the Shahanua tribe from Peru to visit us somewhere in Summer time.

And now, here comes the bad news. I am very shocked by the news, that a good friend of mine, a lady that is already many years on the shamanic path became totally psychotic after a week of ayahuasca and iboga. I can tell you that this lady was completely normal. She is married, she has a son, she was a very good healer and she had her own healing practice. She also organizes many shamanic courses and trainings with a lot of success. She has been drinking medicine many, many times in my ceremonies and she has been to Peru as well. She was in one word very experienced.

Butshe made this terrible mistake to do a week of ayahuasca and iboga with somebody who was not a qualified shaman. Besides that I also heard that ayahuasca and iboga should never be taken short after each other. Anyway, she is in such a bad condition that she has been taken into a mental hospital and it looks like she has to stay there for quite a long time. She is deeply psychotic.

I am telling you this, because this is not the only case that I know of. On my website: www.ayahuasca-ceremonies.org I warn thoroughly for this danger and I receive a lot of reactions from people that need help after a ceremony with an unqualified shaman.They are out of balance, they feel possessed by something bad, some are psychotic like my friend, it is all terrible what I hear. And than they ask me for help and the only thing I can do is send them to Santo Daime Church or to a very good shaman like Miguel Chiriap or Peter Aziz who can take the demonic energies out of them and restore the balance.

There are many therapists and healers that seem to think that they can use ayahuasca and iboga in a psychotherapeutic way and I can tell you no, that is not the way. These medicine plants come out of shamanic traditions and should be used in this way. These self made shamans have usually no idea from the spiritual realms and from the negative demonic energies that they have to deal with. It often goes wrong, maybe not in the first time but in the longer term. And many times these therapists have no idea what damage they cause.

Please take my advice, only drink medicine with a well trained shaman who has the protection from his tradition, who knows the songs, the prayers, who has the help of his ancestor spirits. And if this shaman is not available, than simply don’t do it. I want to take Iboga already for a long time, but I only want to it with a well trained Iboga shaman from the Bwiti in Gabon. And I have never met such a shaman till now, so I don’t do it. I know the dangers to well, so I am not going to take it such a powerful brew without proper guidance.

The only way to experience the healing powers of these plants is with a well trained shaman from an original tradition or with Santo daime church. Here in Gambia I do many small Santo Daime ceremonies for myself and my friends and they are absolutely wonderful, full of healing and light, with total guidance from my angels. I have an enormous respect for this tradition as well.

Unfortunately more bad news has come to me when I heard that Almasta, the spiritual leader of Friends of the Forest, who has been serving medicine for a long time, has had a terrible motor accident and is in coma for many weeks now. I want to send my prayers for him as well.

For me, it is clear that we are going through a very intense time and that specially people who are serving the Light and are trying to raise the human consciousness can be seriously attacked by the Dark Forces. The battle between Light and Dark is on its heights now and we are not on the winning side yet.

So my message for you for 2012 is;

Please take care of yourself. Don’t take too many risks, the energies are very intense right now, take time to relax, meditate and pray. Further, do not underestimate the power of prayer, it can be stronger than any medicine-ceremony.

Therefore as a Christmas present I send you all the prayers that I have received from Isabel Barse, from Santo Daime Church in Mapia, Brasil. These are channeled prayers with the help of the Santo Daime. There are different prayers for the Archangels, for Ascended Masters, Jesus Christ, the Light etc. They are very powerful and they can give you a lot of healing. Just choose a few that you feel really attached to and do them regularly to keep you in contact with these Higher Forces. They can help you moving during these intense shifts. .

Here under you will find some prayers. You will find more in the attachment.

With this I wish you many beautiful blessings for your ascension in 2012,


Much love from Hannah

These prayers are for meditating. Enter the profound feeling of the words and seek to feel them in your heart. Thus you will be able to cross the portals more rapidly. Concentrate on your objective and you will certainly realize it. Gratitude is a fine pearl in the crown of nobility. All who, in this moment of their existence, have the opportunity to read, meditate, and pronounce holy and blessed words, must recognize the gift that they receive and give thanks in the heart. All who, by reading, meditating, and pronouncing sublime and powerful words, succeed in penetrating their profound significance, must intimately give thanks and rejoice. All who, by penetrating the hidden meaning of the words that are inspired by the Divine Mind, recognize themselves, already manifest infinite happiness and gratitude. And through gratitude, one becomes humble and gentle, seeks immediately to share his immense treasure, because in this way one becomes even more fortunate.


Prayer of the Dawn

Brighten, Lord, the thoughts of Humanity. Brighten, brighten, brighten.
Bring down over this globe all the healing energy necessary for the evolution of Humanity.
Bring down the rays of transmutation in order that love, forgiveness and mercy expand themselves in men. Awaken your children Lord, to the light of evolution.
Remove them from the darkness of ignorance and open the veils of consciousness so that they become lucid and wise. And may your Presence, O Father, be the greatest reminder in the community, and unite all men and all beings in only one brotherhood of peace and harmony. 
I do not ask, Lord, that you watch over me, but over all Humanity. And here and now manifest our truth and our life, the force of our union and peace forever. Amen.

Prayer of Light

Divine Light
That from the spiritual heights. Descends to Earth to illuminate the creatures
Forgive me and purify me.

Celestial Light
That from the heights brings us
Powerful richness

Forgive me and purify me.
Supreme Light. That from the heights brings us

Sublime waves
From the Creator. Sovereign Light

That illuminates all darkness
Clarify and free the conscience
Heal me and purify me.

Heal me and purify me
Forgive me and save me
Illuminate all the children of God
All the souls. All the beings.

Most pure Clarity
Eternal Sovereign Glory
Elevate me to You. In power and celestial substance

For all Humanity

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Creation

12/22/2011

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The mere act of creation is just simply the art of making something become conscious. Once the object is recognized and becomes a thought. It may do everything, because it will become a part of our collective history! Either in bones, scriptures, memories, books, pictures, internet, etc, etc.. everything we know stays forever. Everything I've created until now, I know will forever and ever stay on this internet! 

I made myself immortal. I am now immortal. I am not afraid of dying, because I cannot die anymore. My memories will for always be with all of you, because these are my thoughts at and from the moment I think and thus am conscious. Everything I noem now is and becomes My words of thoughts in my thoughts that you are reading. And if you don't understand this, it does not matter, because only I know and now know again my thoughts. 

This is not fylosofie or philosophic words I am saying or writing right at this moment I am thinking and writing at the same time, so these are my written thoughts. I am a psychologist who is writing his own thoughts at this moment. So this is my private session with Myself!

Everyone who treats my thoughts wrongfully and sees them without my written is penetrating my freedom and personal area!
Be carefull, entering is really at your own risk.

This will be the first door I will open of my subconscious. This will be then, the first door of Hell on Earth Open! In the beginning thus, they will be very very hot and steam will come off of this dreams. It will melt snow, the permeating snow of My Subconscious. Freud died without being able to enter here. The fucker smoked too much and killed HimSelf before opening the first door of Hell, so He could become also the very first keeper of the keys of the Hell Door on Earth. Only He can Open Them! 

Oh yes, I did it again. Oops. My bad.

At 12:00 of this day I will stop with creation and go back on watching all my creations!

I will go walk among you all. Please don't kill me. I don't want to be killed! I like to live! I love life too much, to die! If and when I die when I am very old is because I want to. I will be the one that decides when to die, no one may decide that EVER!

Never is also ever!

These all our my thoughts and I am not the one that you will call me! You are crazy and don't know anything about consciousness, or subconsciousness, preciousness and unconsciousness. You all fools forgot how to use these concepts!

I know this secret, so this is my secret recipe of new intelligence! I give you wisdom for money!

That is my price for Justice on this Planet! Because I am The Justice!

I am the G

The real One!

Yes, I Am

Him!

Alvin Siegfried Leito, is My Protector! Only He may decide what to do with Me!

Here I stop for today, 

Much Love.

The G".

22.23

So, this was a message from the one you all forgot!

Alvin
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All is well. I keep forgetting that.

12/19/2011

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We live now in a world where talking about ourselves or about the problems that exists is only reserved for the elite or for politicians. Friends don't do that anymore and families have forgotten that blood is thicker than water, but that blood can be recycled and transfused. What I mean with that I leave in the writing.

The 99% of the world has turned into chit chatters. Into naive beings that only work, eat and wants to be "happy". I can't blame the 99%, because once you learn about the system that has been set up by governments and corporations, you get the feeling that your life is not your life anymore. I hate chit chatting, I am not a chit chatter. I used to be one, but that was to please everyone. But now sadly enough, I'm not a crowd-pleaser anymore. Because nowadays to please, you have to give fake love, manufactured love. The deep heavy love that we used to have and that we used to give is an almost forgotten and endangered phenomenon. We, as people, don't like to hear the truths of others anymore.

And that is where I now stand. Do I choose to go back and be a chit chatter or do I choose to live with the pain of the world? This is a foolish question to ask, let me start by saying this, because once you see what is happening in the world, you can't just close your eyes and tell yourself that it is not real. You cannot just tell yourself I will give only love to everyone I meet and the ones I don't see will have to just be happy with the love I am giving them, with the hope all is well with them. 

All is not well. The sad thing is that, with us, all is well. With the ones who can read this, all is well. We have jobs (that we don't like). We do various activities (that most of the time, we don't do them because we want to, but because they are socially acceptable or because "a friend" wants us to be there). Freud talked about consciousness, pre-consciousness and unconsciousness. It seems that we have programmed ourselves to never think anymore about what we are doing, everything is being put into our unconsciousness and the pains that we have are being stored in the pre-consciousness, so when someone touches a fragile subject, the lights go on and we don't become conscious about what is being said, but we are directly being led to flee. We are being programmed that words can hurt and that we must reject all painful words, because we are sheep that can't stand the heat of words. It is either fight or flight and we now always choose to flee and fly away.

Or.

Turn it all around. We live now in a world where everybody knows that everybody carries their own cross and we now respect the pains of others and leave people be. So the love that I see is not fake, but it is the love that we now give to each other so we can collectively forget all of the pains that we carry. We collectively have decided to never speak of pains no more. Enjoying life to the fullest is the highest goal and it does not matter that we live in social prefabricated cages made by governments and corporations, because we put chickens in smaller cages and they do all right. So why complain? Why put so many energy in something that we can't change? We now think that we are not special, because the pains that we carry are lesser than what people in other countries have. We must be foolish and selfish to complain about the lives that we have, because in other countries they don't even have democracies or the freedom that we have or wow, the food that we have. 

Damn, why am I complaining? I have 3 Mc Donalds in my town! I can go where  I want, I have nice friends and can do fun things with them. My life is so perfect, or at least, I can't or may not complain. That is what we tell ourselves on a daily basis. 

We must not, we may not, we cannot complain. I am a free person, I may vote and I can eat what I want and go where I want.

We must not, we may not, we cannot complain. I am a free person, I can do what I want and buy what I want. 

If this is all true, than I have it all wrong.

But for now, let's agree to disagree.

Alvin

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Ascension Symptoms - Dark Night of the Soul

12/17/2011

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I have just found an informative video on youtube that gives some of the symptoms of ascension or awakening to the higher self. If you don't believe or if you aren't open to the new energy flow that is coming, you of course don't have to watch this video. 

This is thus for the persons who are in the described process and for the ones who are feeling like things are not going like they want to. This video might give you some new insights on why that is.

->  http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=WMoYXK4uBsM

And below are some more information on the (negative) symptoms that can accompany the awakening process. With much appreciation to  freeyourmind4evr for the sharing!

More Ascension Symptoms include:

-Feeling as though you are in a pressure cooker or in intense energy; feeling stress. Remember, you are adjusting to a higher vibration and you will eventually adjust. Old patterns, behaviours and beliefs are also being pushed to the surface. There is a lot going on inside of you.

-Waking at night between 2 and 4 a.m. Much is going on in your dream state. You can't be there for long lengths of time and need a break. This is also the 'cleansing and releasing' hour.

-'Seeing' and 'hearing' things. You are experiencing different dimensions as you transition, all according to how sensitive you are and how you are wired.

-Heightened sensitivities to your surroundings. Crowds, noise, foods, TV, other human voices and various other stimulations are barely tolerable. You also overwhelm very easily and become easily overstimulated. You are tuning up. Know that this will eventually pass.

-You don't feel like doing anything. You are in a rest period, 'rebooting'. Your body knows what it needs. In addition, when you begin reaching the higher realms, 'doing' and 'making things happen' becomes obsolete as the New energies support the feminine of basking, receiving, creating, self-care and nurturing. Ask the Universe to 'bring' you what you want while you are enjoying yourself and having fun.

-An intolerance for lower vibrational things of the 3D, reflected in conversations, attitudes, societal structures, healing modalities, etc. They literally make you feel 'sick' inside. You are in a higher vibration and your energies are no longer in alignment. You are being 'pushed, to move forward; to 'be' and create the New.

-A loss of desire for food. Your body is adjusting to a new, higher state of being. Also, part of you does not want to be here anymore in the Old.

-A sudden disappearance of friends, activities, habits, jobs and residences. You are evolving beyond what you used to be, and these people and surroundings no longer match your vibration. 

-Days of extreme fatigue. Your body is losing density and going through intense restructuring.

-A need to eat often along with what feels like attacks of low blood sugar. Weight gain, especially in the abdominal area. A craving for protein. You are requiring an enormous amount of fuel for this ascension process. Weight gain with an inability to loose it no matter what you do is one of the most typical experiences. Trust that your body knows what it is doing.

-Experiencing emotional ups and downs; weeping. Our emotions are our outlet for release, and we are releasing a lot.

-A wanting to go Home, as if everything is over and you don't belong here anymore. We are returning to Source. Everything is over, but many of us are staying to experience and create the New World. Also, our old plans for coming have been completed.

-Anxiety and panic. Your ego is losing much of itself and is afraid. Your system is also on overload. Things are happening to you that you may not understand. You are also losing behaviour patterns of a lower vibration that you developed for survival in 3D. This may make you feel vulnerable and powerless. These patterns and behaviours you are losing are not needed in the higher realms.

-Depression. The outer world may not be in alignment with the New, higher vibrational you. It doesn't feel so good out there. You are also releasing lower, darker energies and you are 'seeing' through them. Hang in there.

-Vivid, wild and sometimes violent dreams. You are releasing many, many lifetimes of lower vibrational energy. Many are now reporting that they are experiencing beautiful dreams. Your dream state will eventually improve and you will enjoy it again. Some experience this releasing while awake. 

-Night sweats and hot flashes. Your body is 'heating' up as it burns off residue.

-Your plans suddenly change in mid-stream and go in a completely different direction. Your soul is balancing out your energy. It usually feels great in this new direction, as your soul knows more than you do. It is breaking your 'rut' choices and vibration.

-You have created a situation that seems like your worst nightmare, with many 'worst nightmare' aspects to it. Your soul is guiding you into 'stretching' into aspects of yourself where you were lacking, or into 'toning down' aspects where you had an overabundance. Your energy is just balancing itself. Finding your way to peace through this situation is the test you have set up for yourself. This is your journey, and your soul would not have set it up if you weren't ready. You are the one who finds your way out and you will. Looking back, you will have gratitude for the experience and be a different person. 



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A message to Everybody.

12/11/2011

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Explanation:

Some of the entries seem for most people like they where randomly created. Under the tab Guided Journeys you can see how the mental process goes for a whole psychedelic journey. But some of these entries under this tab are just extracts of some journeys. One thing that is important to know is that the published date is not always the date that the entry was created. Sometimes I save things and later on decide if they can go on the site or not. I don't have a specific criteria for posting these things, I just go with my feeling and some of the entries are reoccurring experiences not only for me, but for Psychonauts in general. So, I post these things also as   This entry was created when Ego depletion was at a low. Since I found out about the existence of Ego depletion, or creation of Ego's, or even the feeling of dying of Ego's, I have found myself in some instances where I experienced this phenomenon. And this entry is an example of Ego depletion, where the Ego is exhausted in a journey and wants to stop his activity, or wants to create another "Ego" to continue the work that has been started. 

This is a very tiring and confusing face in a psychedelic journey. Tip for people that are experiencing this is to just let it be and let it go. For people in the company of someone experiencing this, letting the person have this experience is the best way to react in such a situation. Consoling or trying to get the energy back will only exhaust and confuse the person furthermore. 

For more information you can google these concepts or to start you can check -> 
http://216.22.10.76/wiki/Ego_Depletion  

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This is the End for now.


I stopped creating, because I have put everything I know now for sure out there. It's all out in the internet jungle. Make books, write poetry, make films and videos. Games and board games, stripboeken en comics, animee, naughty things, scary things, whatever you want. 

Be creative, but don't come tell me what you did. I don't care, let me see for myself. Feel when I want to be bothered and respect it when I don't wan to do what you want me to do.

For this time, I will never kill again. That I also stop with (for now!).

Let's enjoy this life in my reality, for now. I haven't decided yet. 

A take all my time. Don't worry, I can take care of Myself!

Love you all!

Alvin Siegfried Leito, MSc-kwadraat

The end.

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New Super Real-life Game!

12/11/2011

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Explanation:

Some of the entries seem for most people like they where randomly created. Under the tab Guided Journeys you can see how the mental process goes for a whole psychedelic journey. But some of these entries under this tab are just extracts of some journeys. One thing that is important to know is that the published date is not always the date that the entry was created. Sometimes I save things and later on decide if they can go on the site or not. I don't have a specific criteria for posting these things, I just go with my feeling and some of the entries are reoccurring experiences not only for me, but for Psychonauts in general. So, I post these things also as materials for comparing psychedelic journeys. 


This entry shows clearly the mix-up between reality, believes and fiction. I myself find it interesting to read how creative one can be in mashing up different stories into one story. More importantly, this also shows at what level I was, considering that God came here in the picture, means that this time I was again searching for and getting new knowledge about this concept. This entry is a very small one and does not tell you the reader much, but every sentence is another way of looking at (my) life or your life.

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Okay, wait a minute, go easy on me, because I was not lying. I have not lied since! I swear, test me if you want too! I can remember everything I did or I can find proof of what I am saying. I don't know when I did it, but Mary-Alice did it to save You. God lived in the suburbs. He found Himself a peaceful place to relax, until Dexter came and fucked it all up, coming here and playing God! What tha fuck Dexter! Wake up! This is my reality! Stop looking for me, because you will never find me, dude. I am God. And I don't want you to see me, because you might kill me, because you would see that I also carry a dark passenger. My son the devil lives inside of me. You would think that I am pregnant and that my child is dying because of out of oxygen. But that is just in your head, that is not true. I am a good person, individual, who just flies really really high, every time in the sky when I go outside, that's why I can see every danger that exist in the world and I can live here peacefully without getting killed by your insecurities and fears! 

I have given you every thing I have and what you need to try to become me. So we can finally unite in the afterlife.

Because that is my game called; Life!

Buy it now in stores!

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Frans, my neighbour from my childhood

12/10/2011

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Explanation:

Some of the entries seem for most people like they where randomly created. Under the tab Guided Journeys you can see how the mental process goes for a whole psychedelic journey. But some of these entries under this tab are just extracts of some journeys. One thing that is important to know is that the published date is not always the date that the entry was created. Sometimes I save things and later on decide if they can go on the site or not. I don't have a specific criteria for posting these things, I just go with my feeling and some of the entries are reoccurring experiences not only for me, but for Psychonauts in general. So, I post these things also as materials for comparing psychedelic journeys. 


These are the words that confused a lot of therapists, because they may easily be interpreted as being manic 
( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mania ) or they can be interpreted as losing reality. The latter one is off course true, because for this reality that we live in, this sounds weird or crazy, but this just comes from the creativity of the mind, but most important it comes with childhood memories, but also shows the beautiful things I see in nature. Now I can't describe the work of a bee like I did in this entry, but I do admire nature and in this journey it shows. One more important thing that comes from this entry is the noticeable projection of the believes of others in me. This is something that has bothered me for a while, because there are a lot of people that wanted different things from me and also expected different things from me. And in some entries I can see back the projection and rejection of these believes. This entry is one of my favorites, just because of the description of the bee's :p

Why I called it story of psychosis 1, I really don't know. One thing I know is that I am really amazed of how society and actually most of the people I know is scared of the unknown and of mental illnesses. In my neighborhood where I grew up there where to persons that where schizophrenic / psychotic  and I remember how I could not understand why everybody where afraid of talking to them. One of them lived a lone and the other person lived with his family, but in a separate house. With the last person I remember that I had a lot of talks with him when I was I child. And in some of the entries I "see' him back. 
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All of what I am telling you right now comes from thoughts that I have created when I was a child. From childhood I was a gatherer! I am a collector of things. I am the one that creates and keeps everything he makes in his head. That's why I know everything, but sometimes just for fun and just to have a nice conversation with you, I play dumb. And the most funny thing is, you actually fall every time for it. As bees to honey, which is the product bees can't keep their tongue to it. They lick the whole thing like they are getting an orgasm. The licking of the honey is the most sensual thing in the Universe! Go watch a bee make love to a flower. You will melt.

I promise you that, that that is what I see when I see a bee sucking pollen and honey out of flowers and that's how I also know how to go down on everybody, because I am the master liquor maker of this century of time. I am the alchemist.

Welcome to my world, my friends. This is my reality!

I am not flying. I am just higher than you all. And I will never let anybody that can read this fly higher than me! Because I am Your Majesty! Alvin Siegfried Leito 1st

@ 5 years old when he told me that I could be this and that at the same time! I just have to believe it! So now I do.

Alvin
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An e-mail to my friend! Dated - 19-08-2011 07:40am

12/10/2011

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Explanation:

Something that really bothered me after Germany was the lies that some people began to spread about me. But one of the most surprising things that I've learned from since then is how secretive people are. And since then I've decided to not live my life like that. If people get mad with me because of the things I say, than that is that. I never want to hear again that I said something to someone that was not my truth or that I don't know what I experienced or what I am talking about.

So that's why little by little I will post some of the e-mails I have send to people after Germany. Because after I realized the story that was being told, I became afraid that people would firstly, believe everything that was being said and secondly, that people would become worried for my well being, because I know that there are some people that still can't and won't realize how potent our minds are and that we ourselves can choose what will (mentally) hurt us or not. 


And I chose to vent the way I vented and (understandably) there where some people that could not accept my way of dealing with the situation. I honestly believe that everyone can heal themselves, they just need the freedom and space to do this their way. So, I hope that with all of these entries and this website that I can at least reach one person and show them that they don't have to be afraid of acting the way that they feel that they have to act to free themselves from bad energy. 

Because whatever you do, there will be people that will tell you that you are doing the wrong things. That is life.

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8 mijn andere lieve vriend heeft me op die maandag in elkaar geslagen, zonder dat ik de reden weet. Ik was zo van mijn apropos dat ik hem niet eens kon vragen en terug reageren. Ik heb zelf zijn slagen geaccepteerd, want ik vertrouwde hem toen hij bezig was dat ik toch wel iets heel ergs heb gedaan. Maar ik weet het echt niet meer!!! Het is niet eerlijk dat hij, mijn vriend, zo in elkaar sloeg zonder te vertellen waarom! Ik op dat weekend heb ik voor het eerst tegen 7 verteld dat ik vond dat zij een goede vriendin van me was, niet omdat zij alleen de vriendin van 8 was, maar omdat ik echt vond dat zij een goed hart had, maar zij bleef gewoon toekijken hoe 8 mij in elkaar sloeg, zonder iets te doen en 9, mijn andere goede vriend, heeft mij ook niet geholpen terwijl 8 helemaal tekeer ging met mij. Dat alles maakte mij zo boos, dat ik flipte. Ik wilde niet op ze afreageren, dus heb ik dat maar op rijdende auto's en trucks gedaan. Nadat ik van de auto gevallen was, kwamen 8 en 9 mij helpen en dragen, maar ik wilde dat niet, want ik was zo boos op ze, maar de enige wat ik toen deed was ze vertrouwen dat ze me naar een veilige plek zouden brengen. Nadat ik bijgekomen was in het barak, kreeg ik mijn eerste black-out van woede toen ik die drie 'judassen' zag. Toen ben ik voor het eerst in het ambulance gezet en naar het ziekenhuis gegaan. Ik bleef niet lang in het ziekenhuis, want ik had niks, ik moest alleen bijkomen. Toen ik die drie weer zag, wilden zij niet met me praten en ik moest iets in het Duits tekenen wat ik niet begreep en ze wilden me absoluut niet helpen met vertalen. Toen heb ik alles weer voor mijn 'vrienden' geslikt, omdat dat 'doe je gewoon voor je 'vrienden' en een document getekend, zonder dat ik weet wat over mij gezegd werd. In de auto wilde ik zo graag met iemand praten, zodat ik weer helderheid kreeg, waarom zij zo boos op mij waren en waarom 8 mij zo in elkaar heeft geslagen, dat ik absoluut niet agressief geworden was, maar ik kon gewoon niet stoppen met vragen stellen. 8 heeft me twee keer gewaarschuwd in de auto om niet met 7 te praten en ook om haar niet aan te raken. De derde keer dat ik dat deed, werd hij zo boos dat hij me dreigde om mij aan de kant te zetten. Ik werd toen zo boos en voelde zo onbegrepen en onrechtvaardig behandeld, dat ik tegen hem begon te schreeuwen om de auto te stoppen en mij aan de kant te zetten. Dat deed hij en toen ik uit de auto stapte was ik en hij zo boos, dat ik gewoon niet meer kan herinneren wat er precies daarna was gebeurd, maar enige wat ik weer kan herinneren was dat hij opeens weer bezig was om mij te slaan. Ik deed niks om mezelf te verdedigen, ik ging hem niet terug slaan, want ik ben zo'n mietje dat denkt dat 'vrienden slaan geen 'vrienden', dat de enige wat ik kon doen was 9 en 7 weer voor hulp vragen. Uiteraard, die twee andere 'judassen van mij' deden niks terug. Toen de ambulance personeel kwam, had 8 me vast en ik begon tegen die ambulance personeel te schreeuwen dat zij 8 moeten bevelen om mij los te laten. Die ambulance personeel konden alleen tegen me zeggen dat 'mijn 'vrienden' ze hadden gebeld en 'mijn 'vrienden' willen het aller beste voor mij. Toen flipte ik gewoon, want ik wist toen heel zeker dat die drie onbekenden van me van wie ik al een hele tijd kende en van wie ik begon te houden, echt geen vrienden van me waren, dus begon ik allerlei pogingen te doen om de ambulance personeel te proberen te overtuigen dat zij mijn vrienden niet waren en ik begon op een gegeven moment zelf tegen de ambulance personeel en tegen de politie (want die is inmiddels ook gekomen) te vertellen dat Joey mij wilde vermoorden en heb zelf toen verzonnen dat die judas een mes achter mijn rug had. Dat heb ik allemaal gedaan, want ik wilde niet dat hij me vast hield en ik wilde niet dat de hulp troepen tegen mij bleven zeggen dat die drie judassen mijn vrienden waren.

Dit is mijn waarheid en mijn realiteit! Wie kan zeggen dat ik hier aan het liegen ben?


Alvin
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Channeled by Brenda Hoffman

12/10/2011

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Dear Ones,

Many of you are curious about the dimensions. Our words are not as descriptive as we would like because our vocabulary and yours are not yet the same. Before we try to outline the differences using your words, we wish to remind you that there is neither a good nor bad dimension – including the third dimension – merely dimensions with different skill set needs.

Dimensions are no more unusual than someone with a doctorate in engineering using different skills than would be true for a doctorate in psychology. Both fields require specific skills, but neither is more valuable.

Let us begin with the third dimension. The third dimension has received a “bad rap” of late. So many of you are wishing to move forward that you believe those who do not are somehow less skilled than you. In truth, they wish to use different skills.

We have told you that as you move beyond the third dimension, you will move into peace and joy. So you will. But know that those who remain in the third dimension are extremely courageous. A bit like those soldiers in a military venture who stay behind to “cover” their buddies as their buddies run to safety. Those in the third dimension are willing to continue with duality, pain and trauma – not an easy lesson plan.

Those who opt to move to the fourth dimension have it a bit easier. In our military analogy, they would be the soldiers resting in comfortable lodgings as their buddies hold up the rear. That does not mean that pain, fear and chaos do not touch those in the fourth dimension, but rather that they are more removed from those areas; their fear, pain and trauma are dulled. They feel for their buddies who are protecting them, but they do not have the need to replace them or return to the third dimension. Their skill set allows them to remove themselves from the “fray” while still noting that it is going on and feeling bad for those who volunteered to be part of the rear guard.

The fifth dimension does not understand the need for any military action or pain, fear and trauma. While they observe the trauma, they are so removed that they see the futility of third dimension actions. Those in the fifth dimension are removed from the “fray” by their skill set of a closer attachment to their spiritual elements than the heaviness of the third dimension.

The third dimension is extremely heavy – like quicksand or the muck that forms on dirt roads during a spring thaw. Fifth dimension individuals seem to float above the chaos – like the good fairy in the book The Wizard of OZ. The good fairy could have helped Dorothy return to Kansas at any time by having her click her heels together. But Dorothy needed to explore various elements including the love of her companions and her fears about becoming a complete and independent individual. Do you suppose Dorothy would have dared to pull back the curtain of the wizard of Oz the first day she found herself in her nightmare?

So it is for those who wish to remain in the third dimension. They feel the need to continue their journey. While those in the fifth dimension watch over them with love and kindness knowing that those in the third dimension will move to a different dimension as soon as they learn all they wish to learn.

The sixth dimension is not at all associated with the third dimension. The skill set necessary to be comfortable in the sixth dimension includes a much closer connection to the spirit world – as you now define it – than the current third dimension earth. Similar to a college student having little interest in the tribulations of a small child learning to read. The college student knows that the child will complete his or her reading lessons eventually. You do not find college students spending hours worrying about the reading skills of first graders. College students have adulthood and their next exam to think about.

The seventh dimension could best be described as a college professor who is not concerned with the reading skills of first graders or college freshmen academics. These are the professors more concerned with creating or discovering new knowledge than what college freshmen choose to absorb.

Exploring the specific skill sets of the various dimensions, you would find that those of the third dimension are unlikely to encourage or allow communication beyond the five senses.

The fourth dimension adds skills such as inter-dimensional communications, more complete interpersonal communications and interactions with others in different dimensions.

The fifth dimension is the first to accept the reality of other dimensions as a part of life on earth or wherever they place themselves. It is not a question of life beyond earth, but a knowingness. The fifth dimension also enables those comfortable in that arena to zip between dimensions and time. There is no need for history books for those in the fifth dimension can easily travel to the past, future or wherever they want in the present. The fifth dimension encompasses a vast expanse of the Universe.

The sixth dimension does not require form or function, but creates whatever format is necessary for a particular expedition or for fun. There are no limitations to travel or knowingness – except for the Council knowledge base.

The Council directs the activities of the Universes and is comprised of entities of the seventh and beyond dimensions. Those dimensions, in various groups, determine which planets, Universes and entities will be expanded or shifted to best meet the needs of the godhead or whatever you wish to call the supreme being of which all dimensions are an extension of.

The dimension you select is a combination of what your being wishes to experience and the needs of the totality that is life. The Council is a bit like occupants of a war room moving volunteer entities, planets and Universes around one or more areas in the totality.

Before an entity can apply to be part of the Council, that entity becomes proficient in the preceding dimensions – a rating the entity assigns itself.

Whichever dimension you feel most comfortable in is the correct dimension for you. Forcing yourself into a different dimension will only delay your growth process. You, in conjunction with your higher self and totality of being, decided what you wanted to learn in this lifetime. Your inner being provides the messages that help you complete those lessons.

Why force yourself to be a pianist if you prefer building homes? Dimension selection is no different. Ask yourself what your home dimension is knowing that you are most comfortable in that dimension for a reason YOU selected. Allow yourself to be. So be it. Amen.


So I chose the One I want to be in this reality.

Oops. Too High? ;-)

Alvin
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Evolution

12/9/2011

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Why do we need reason(ing) in our lives? Why do we care so much for the path that we must take, if when we know what path has to be taken, we are so scared to take it, because we still don't know for sure where it will lead us. We think we know, because others have walked the same path, but ended at a different road. And that is scary, because how can we walk the same path and end at different crossroads? The reason for that is the reason that you want it to be. That is the reason why we always end at different destinations, because we are very curious beings. We don't like to see the same things twice, because we get bored. We need to evolve, or at least we think that we must evolve. Evolution is primed in our system. From the beginning of consciousness and then from the start of time, to the start of thinking we have thought that we have to evolve.

But the thing is, we never asked ourselves why that is. Why do we need to keep evolving? Why do we need to grow and change? Why do we need to become better beings? Aren't we good enough? Why can't we be happy with ourselves, just the way we are? The reason for that is curiosity again. Because the thought that keeps popping every time in our heads is; 'if I am now this good and this perfect, how will I be if I become even better?" So we go and search for the better you. Because there is always a better you. Yes, there is. That is the real drug of life. The thought of change for a better you. If it's not in this reality or in this life, there has to be a better you in an other space or in an other time, or in an other dimension. 


Not everything has to be long.

So here is where I stop.

Alvin


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