What is Spirituality?

I was raised as a Catholic and grew up believing that I believed in a God. In a God that controls things, that controls me and that has a plan for everyone of us. As I grew older I started doubting this believe and as I started doubting this believe, I actually started doubting everything I ever believed. So, without actually knowing, my spiritual journey started without me even realizing that I was on a journey. For me that is the essence of spirituality, not knowing or giving things a name, but only observing and finding out what is for you real and what is not.

I can't tell you what spirituality for you is or will be. Let me tell you this upfront, nobody can. In your life you will only find people that have had the same experiences you had or they may have the same "believes" or thoughts that you have. But there is no universal answer on what spirituality is or means, because it starts with you. 

So the question is; how can you start the journey if you don't know where to begin? The answer to that is simple; you have already started...

What has God to do with Spirituality?

For me the answer to the question above is; nothing and everything. Whichever you like or whatever you may find on your path. Do I believe in God? Yes. Do I have to call him/her God? No. I do it because everybody has a concept of God and it's easier for me to call him/her that. But to me the concept of God means only that there is a universal energy that surrounds us. That we are living in a universal/shared consciousness which now manifests itself as individuals thinking that they are one whole being living with other beings on this planet or in this universe. 

What about God (the father)? I believe in God the father, the same as I believe in Jesus, Mohammed, Buddha and to an extent even Mooji. Because to me they are spiritual beings who acquired the knowledge and wisdom to elevate themselves on an energy force that could change not only their reality, but also the reality for the ones grabbed by their force. But it is important to realize that even the God from the Bible, Koran or Torah is an Egoic God. Meaning that He is the creator of the concept of Heavens and Earth, so even He has a place in the universal energy that surrounds us. 

How will I know what to believe/think?

I find the answer to the question above a little more difficult to answer. Because we live now in a world where words, believes and thoughts consume a whole lot of our energy nowadays. People are forgetting the concept of conditioning (Ivan Pavlov) and that as (human) beings are also being conditioned to react to words, thoughts or believes by the interaction that we have which each other or with our surroundings. And just as Pavlov's dog, there are numerous conditioning's programmed into ourselves that aren't functional (anymore) for us. 

But to get to these dysfunctional or even functional programmings or conditioning's into ourselves is not easy. It's like trying to teach a robot to program itself where it wants to go or to teach a robot what the codes are for his own program of responses. The beautiful thing of human beings is that we can do this, but it takes a lot of practicing and a lot of (self)doubting and (self)exploring. And here is where spirituality can be used as a tool. Because spirituality doesn't tell you what to think or what to believe. And if you can understand this concept, you will see that you are the only one that can answer this question that I am trying to answer.

Who am I?

I could answer this question in two ways, thru the Ego that has been created from birth or from the essence that I always was; something that had no name. 
Here is actually where spirituality, science and religion can come together to answer this question, because spirituality describes the nothingness that we once where and always will be. Religion gives us the answer on what our purpose is when we become conscious of ourselves and science gives us the answer on where we stand at the moment of being conscious of the present reality.

When did my journey begin?

My journey began when I first knew and first could have controlled my thought, where I could delete the ones who where/are hurting me. The first thought that have constantly hurt me and the one of the first who I deleted, not only from my subconscious, but also from my mind was that of the dream when I was a child, where the dream turned into a nightmare, where I kept falling into the abyss. Because of that dream I also knew that it gave me the fear of heights during the time that I was awake. But because the fear of heights was during the day a functional fear,  I only decided to take my dream away, or to make me only forget the dream and not his counterpart. So, I actually could not destroy the dream, because destroying the dream, would also destroy the counterpart, because all the dreams or realities stemming from each other cannot (co)exist without each other. And no one can be left harmed or killed or forgotten.

This was also the time I realized that I had to erase the wisdom that I just got, because that wisdom would make me feel me. And the one who I am, is not the one who should (be) awaken. 

On this page I will keep posting more of these kinds of questions and I am going to try to answer them by myself, with a video besides that answer that gives other insights on that matter. If you have some questions that you think that will be interesting for me to answer on this page, feel free to send me your questions!